A moment of confusion

Lately I've been defining myself as a pretty reserved person. I'm a loner. That's all fine and dandy, untill I realized all of my friends moved away. All I have left is Eric, and much as I love him...its not enough.

I've been trying though. I hang out with a few guys in my English class. Matt, Matt, Hector, and Jake. They're pretty cool, funny and all. But I get the distinct feeling I'm not part of the group, nor will I be invited to join the ranks of the cool. I get it though, we have nothing in common. I mean they're all in their mid-upper 20s, going back to college. And I'm 18, fresh out of high school. That's fine, I guess.

I really like the people I work with too. Tony, Dean, Connie, everyone really. And the same thing happens. Although I do understand I'm the "new girl".

I'm just not used to being in situations like this. I mean, yeah, I've been the new girl in elementary school...but that's so far away from now. It might as well be another life. Everything about me has changed since then. I didn't expect to be so desperate for day to day social interactions. I can't discredit my friendship with Tom and Matt, but I rarely see them.

I'm not 100% sure what to do about this. Should I just throw myself into it and force my way in? Or do I wait to get the much coveted invite? I'm keeping in mind my past history with throwing myself into things. I believe that's what happened in high school, and I'd really rather not relive that. It can't be THAT hard...can it?

Sometimes I suspect I'm over thinking this.