Company

I suppose I should blog before its midnight and then technically tomorrow and I'll have missed a day of blogging. Woah, run on sentence.

Anyways, life. I worked today. I have the Beltane festival at Hart Park tomorrow, which should be alright. A certain old friend of mine will be there, and I'm not looking forward to that altercation.

Sarah is coming home soon. I can't wait. I miss her like crazy, and I really need her to lean on. And she needs me to lean on.

I did a stupid thing and let Eric sleep in bed with me. I couldn't sleep, and I heard him come in, so I got up to give him a proper pillow. He offered to come to bed. And I let him. Because I'm so desperate for those quiet moments, that I'm willing to do anything. And then I dreamed he had sex with some strange woman and I woke up realizing that could very well happen and I can't say anything about it. And it crushed me. Because I cannot picture him being with another woman... I just can't.

So I'm going out to the bar with my mom, and if I'm lucky, she'll get me drunk.