Family

I have to go to class in a couple minutes, but I just need to write some of this down.

I'm really jealous of everyone out there that has a good relationship with both of their parents. You know, your dad taught you important things about life, your mom was always there for you. And now, as an adult, you can laugh and smile and have that special relationship.

I will never know what that is like.

My family is pretty messed up. My father and mother broke up when I was about 2, and when I was 6 my mom married Joel, my stepdad. For the most part, I neither got a long with nor remotely liked Joel. And my father...well, he's got a ton of issues. My mother and I have always been close, but she's really not your conventional mother-type. Lets just say she's got issues too.

I don't even know what I'm trying to say here. I guess this is a case of "the grass is always greener on the other side". But even if you don't get along with your parents all the time, I really urge you to at least appreciate that they are there. I'll never have my dad be my dad. Two nights ago I basically told my stepdad to get out of my life, because he's a poisonous individual. I don't know.

Its just something I've been thinking about.