Changes

My life is all about change lately. On Wednesday I'll be changing my address, I'm changing my career goal, and I'm changing my mind about a lot of things.

I work double shifts almost every day this week, except by some miracle I have all of Wednesday off, so I'll be spending that day packing most of my things, and then moving them to my mom's in the evening. I'm not really looking forward to it at all, but we have to be out of here by Saturday, and I want to have time to do a thorough cleaning of the place before we hand back our keys.

September 1st MATC-Madison begins accepting program applications for fall of 2010. I need to get my transcripts in order and speak to a councilor soon, so that I can be on top of this. The more and more I debate in my head, the more it looks like I won't be moving to the eastside with my friend. If I can manage to live with my parents until May, I'll have my debts paid off and I'll have enough money saved up for a move to Madtown. That way, I can survive if I don't find a job right away.

I'm also rethinking my choice of companions. I've recently met a lot of really awesome people that I can relate well to and that have common interests. I'm realizing that being friends with someone for a long time does not mean that you'll be friends with them in the future. In fact, maybe it would be best for all parties involved to just let the natural ebb of life take over, and allow a drifting-apart.

I feel like I'm standing in front of an open door, and for once I'm excited to cross the threshold. I'm feeling a lot of familiar anxiety, and I promise, this time I'm seeking some sort of help BEFORE I have a meltdown. I know the signs, and I know when I need to talk to someone who can be objective and not my mother. Ha.

Since it's 12:15a now, and I have to be up by 9:30 I'd better go and try to get some sleep.