Changes

My life is all about change lately. On Wednesday I'll be changing my address, I'm changing my career goal, and I'm changing my mind about a lot of things.

I work double shifts almost every day this week, except by some miracle I have all of Wednesday off, so I'll be spending that day packing most of my things, and then moving them to my mom's in the evening. I'm not really looking forward to it at all, but we have to be out of here by Saturday, and I want to have time to do a thorough cleaning of the place before we hand back our keys.

September 1st MATC-Madison begins accepting program applications for fall of 2010. I need to get my transcripts in order and speak to a councilor soon, so that I can be on top of this. The more and more I debate in my head, the more it looks like I won't be moving to the eastside with my friend. If I can manage to live with my parents until May, I'll have my debts paid off and I'll have enough money saved up for a move to Madtown. That way, I can survive if I don't find a job right away.

I'm also rethinking my choice of companions. I've recently met a lot of really awesome people that I can relate well to and that have common interests. I'm realizing that being friends with someone for a long time does not mean that you'll be friends with them in the future. In fact, maybe it would be best for all parties involved to just let the natural ebb of life take over, and allow a drifting-apart.

I feel like I'm standing in front of an open door, and for once I'm excited to cross the threshold. I'm feeling a lot of familiar anxiety, and I promise, this time I'm seeking some sort of help BEFORE I have a meltdown. I know the signs, and I know when I need to talk to someone who can be objective and not my mother. Ha.

Since it's 12:15a now, and I have to be up by 9:30 I'd better go and try to get some sleep.

Tidbit

Okay, you've read the little notes to customers I've written in my past, as a barista. I dealt with some pretty annoying people. However, they were just angry-annoying and not funny-annoying. So here's a couple tidbits of my new customer base, the hilarious.

Me: Anything else on your sandwhich?
Guy: Do you have any seasoning salts?
Me: Well, we have salt and pepper.
Guy: Ok, what other flavors?
Me: Salt...and pepper...and oregano?
Guy: Yeah I'll have that.
Me: Okay, but that's not really a salt.
Guy: What kind of oils do you have?
Me: ...olive.
Guy: Any other kind?
Me: Um, this is Subway, we don't really have specialty oils and salts.
Guy: disappointed Oh...that's it then I guess...

And another

Me: What would you like on the meatball sub?
Girl: Lettuce
Me: putting on the lettuce
Girl: NO NO THATS THE WRONG SUB I THOUGHT MEATBALL ONLY CAME WITH CHEESE!!!!! Oh, well, you can just pick all the lettuce off.
Me: Well, that's not the easiest thing in the world to do... as I'm picking little pieces of shredded lettuce out of marinara sauce
Girl: Well, I don't like the kid that much anyways.

Some of my personal favorites are when customers come in and start ordering a sub, look around alarmed, and ask if we're closed. I usually respond "No...we let you in didn't we?". I usually want to just say "Yes" and continue making the sandwhich.

One time I had a guy sing the 5 dollar footlong song to me every time I tried to ask him what he wanted. I could have killed him but it was pretty funny after the fact.

Oooh, here's another one. There's this guy that comes in, gets a sub, pays 34 cents cash, $5 on his card, and gets a nickle in change. No idea why he does this. Anyways, I'd never rung him up before so I was a little hesitant, but I figured it out. I swipe his card, and it declines. He starts shouting. "ITS IMPOSSIBLE FOR IT TO DECLINE, THIS IS A DEBIT, ITS NOT EVEN CREDIT, AND I HAVE OVERDRAFT PROTECTION". I told him he needed to call his bank and make sure, because it has nothing to do with me. He proceeded to call us idiots and stormed out after throwing the sandwhich back at us. I'm hoping for two possible outcomes: 1) he comes back and is very anal again and I ask if he ever resolved that problem with his card and 2) he never comes back after calling his bank and finding out his card was frozen or something. It sort of made my day though.

Sometimes, I love my job.

Insights

Preface: I don't have an operational computer yet, I've just hijacked The Boy's for now so I can post.

Okay.

I was just on Facebook (which is usually how these things happen) when I realized quite suddenly that for as many "friends" I claim to have, I really don't have many friends at all. Hardly any. And the closest friend I have lives halfway around the world and I haven't spoken to her in weeks.

It's really depressing.

But then I'm noticing that I'm really socially awkward. I say a lot of really...weird things. I do weird things. I'm weird. I also have strange, self-imposed social rules. I always assume (I know) that unless someone calls or texts me, they really don't have much interest in talking to me.

There are a few people that I don't always have this issue with. Bestie being one of them, TC probably another, and I never have any problem imposing on E, but she's family so I guess that doesn't really count.

As a result, I'm starting to become a really solitary person. As a kooky aside, I had my natal chart drawn up (astrology, as in "what's your sign?") and the astrologer noted that about 7 years ago I probably started exhibiting more Cancer-like characteristics (inverted, solitary) over my sign, Gemini (Extroverted, extremely social). Thinking back, I started having all these social hang-ups around that time, though I'm more likely to attribute this to being a teenager.

I'm starting to feel very isolated and inadequate because of this lately. I feel like I'm spending far too much time by myself reading or just people-watching. I don't even socialize with The Boy anymore really. Every once in a while I'll do something fun with someone, but not very often.

Maybe this is all hitting me because I really miss my best friend. Or because I'm working all the time (good thing though). Most likely because I looked at the page of a friend (well, aquaintence) that I had in high school and I remembered how much I wish I had her life. Yeah, that's probably it.

Okay, I sort of forgot where I was going with this becuase its late, I just got home from the gym, and I was staring out the window at the moon for a good 5 minutes there. I guess I'll just leave it at that? Night.

Thanks. Have a great day.

Just a quick phone blog to let everyone know that I'm without a computer indefinitely, so there won't be any blogs for a while. The cat destroyed my Mac.