Disappointed

Lately I just have to shake my head at everything.

I'm disappointed.

I'm disappointed in my generation, my culture. I'm disappointed in my relationships, not just romantic but platonic as well. I'm disappointed in my job, and my inability to get a new job. I'm disappointed in my faith, and my lack of faith.

I guess I just saw real life.

As fantastic as some moments seem, happiness needs to be judged on the feelings one carries throughout the day. Unfortunately, I'm just disappointed in everything I see. I'm surprised, for some reason, that certain people can be so petty. I'm saddened because I know I can be just as petty. I don't know why I suddenly feel this way. I used to love my friends, my job, my schooling.

Now, I barely talk to anybody outside of an electronic medium. I hate my job (It's official). I don't even know why I'm bothering with college. And the sad thing is, I don't even want to do anything about it. All I'm inclined to do lately is apathetically shake my head and shrug my shoulders.

I think I need a change of pace. I need something different. I need a vacation, or a haircut, or something. Or, y'know, a new job. A better apartment (NOT in Stallis, god this place is awful).

I don't know where I was going with this. I have a headache and I want to go for a nice long walk but it's freezing out. Hell, I want to run. But, like I said, it's freezing.

FML.