Hot or Not?

I'm gonna share a little secret with you guys.

I got on hotornot.com and click to view women only. Then I rate the girls that I know don't have a high rating (a little overweight, bad photo, etc) as perfect 10s. I rate the obvious hotties with the lowest score possible. But then I get angry because I'm only a 6, apparently.

I think that yeah, people should be comfortable with their bodies and such. I also think there is a major problem with body image these days.

I'm also in the camp that has a very negative self-image. I'd like to be told once, just once, that I'm a perfect ten. (Without it being a joke).

But at the same time, I don't want to pose half naked in front of a camera just to get a comment like that.

I just want someone to think I'm pretty. Some random stranger. I want to be the one hit on when I go out with my friends. I'm sick of people telling me that my best friend is "so hot", I hate when guys ask if she's single. I feel like the freaking ugly duckling when guys do that. I guess I can't blame them...but still. Its enough to kill a good mood.

I also hate when I'm feeling really good about how I look, and then some girl that's obviously way more attractive stands like, right next to me. Especially when they're tall, thin, and perfect in every way.

Ugh.